[saraevelyn]

When i said "no, i don't want an abortion" i never thought that i would regret that choice..

i felt, at the time, that i made a mistake, and it was time to grow up and deal with it.

well, i did that. I have a one month old daughter, and guess what? I'm really honestly hating my life right now.

i thought i would love her right off the bat, and i think i did, in the beginning... But now, i really couldn't care less if she needs a diaper change or if she's hungry or wants to be held. I don't want to do it. I want her to be taken care of, but not by me.

i want to be 18. I'm missing out on being a young adult. I want to party, i want to stay out late, i want to drink and not worry about drinking too much.. I want to smoke and not have to worry about changing my clothes so she doesn't get that smell on her.

i have this urge to just get up and leave. She'd be better off with my mother anyways.

im really just not in a good place right now, and i havent been for a few weeks. And idk what to do.

[xxgorejessxx]

Postpartum depression; I suggest going to a therapist, or just talking to someone. And i know where your coming from, about wanting to enjoy life. That's why I chose adoption. It's not too late for you..

[xxgorejessxx]

I also looked up that when you have a boy, they exhaust or strain or whatever you physically, and with girls they exhaust/strain you emotionally. Maybe that could be it too?

[rustedangel00]

I have to agree with xxgorejessxx it does sound a lot like postpartum depression. I experienced this a little after my daughter was born, but not as severely. You definitely need someone to talk to it helps a lot. Also you should speak to your physician about your symptoms, and they should be able to tell you if you are experiencing postpartum depression, or not. Sometimes it just goes away on it's own, but in some cases it gets worse, so to be sure, you should definitely talk to your doctor.

[mrs_vandelza]

I went through depression for 3 months! All i could do was stay beside my baby with my boyfriend by my side. Choosing goes out the door when our water breaks. Don't you have help from you're husband?

[younginstasy]

I'm pretty sure that's not postpartum. It's just called the baby blues, which women get up to six months after the baby is born.
Post Postpartum is more long term, over six months.

But I know how you feel. I honestly do not feel connected to my baby at all. Maybe this will change over the course of the weeks, maybe it won't. If it doesn't I would speak to someone about it. If you don't feel comfortable talking to a doctor, talk to one of your friends. Your feelings are valid, and you should speak to maybe someone who has gone through the same thing.
<3

[mrs_vandelza]

younginstasy wrote: I'm pretty sure that's not postpartum. It's just called the baby blues, which women get up to six months after the baby is born. Post Postpartum is more long term, over six months. But I know how you feel. I honestly do not feel connected to my baby at all. Maybe this will change over the course of the weeks, maybe it won't. If it doesn't I would speak to someone about it. If you don't feel comfortable talking to a doctor, talk to one of your friends. Your feelings are valid, and you should speak to maybe someone who has gone through the same thing. <3

I admire the love you give to the mamas

[younginstasy]

Thank you.

[mrs_vandelza]

It will get better Sara. Sometimes when you take off your babys shirt and your shirt also and just lay together, the baby will stop crying. Its called touch connection