Re: Vent Thread 162
I'm super sick and didn't buy anything at the mall, aside from something to drink. I called in sick to work for tomorrow, and I have Friday off. My supervisor will be pissed because I'm training for cook, but I don't think I can do this anymore. Is it worth the money? I have no ****ing idea... Probably not. I'm suffocating on everything worse than before. My relationships with everyone are crumbling, even my parents. I can't function after work... I just completely shut myself off and sleep, only to start over again. My mom knows I'm still depressed, but she says there's nothing she can do about it. She tells me I need to see someone about possibly having bipolar disorder, but when will I have time to see a therapist?
I'm sick, congested, I have a sore throat and I'm running a slight fever (I'm naturally feverish though). I got told I have a dangerous amount of pressure in my eyes for my age and that I need to come back for a pressure test. I got new glasses... They're cute and waaaay stronger than my old ones. So everything is in 4k resolution instead of 1044p like my old glasses, or 400p without my glasses (YT vid resolutions lol). Also, I was told I need to wear my glasses daily and also, down the line, I still run the risk of getting glaucoma or going blind so that's nice.
Umm and the neurologist told me I most likely have chronic daily headaches as they're typical for girls my age. He did blood work on me, it's in lab right now, and I'm doing an EEG scan in April, I believe. I have to take two vitamins (B6 and magnesium citrate) and meds for my intense headaches/migraines.
That's my Wednesday so far... The trip to the mall felt like a waste. You know you're disgusting and hate yourself when your mom buys from Hot Topic and you don't buy anything. Although there was a Totoro shirt I wanted, but it wasn't in my size. Mmm also a jumper than Dan owns (Studio Ghibli one i think is what it's called) but it was $50 lol. I'm not that interested in copying my male fashion icon.
Imma just say for the record the my fashion icons are Dan Howell, Troye Sivan, and Bianca (heyimbee).
That is all. Hope your day's going good.
Jasmine | 17